Before and After can be a Painful Reminder

The picture above is me on July 4th, 2013 vs me on July 4th 2017 (minus at least 40 lbs.)

One thing that I have mentioned a lot so far on my blog is how a few years back I lost 40 lbs, after completing a New Year’s Resolution in 2015. Losing weight and becoming wellness focused is a brink of midnight moment in my life that has changed me in mind, body, and spirit, (also check out the Brink of Midnight podcast if you are looking for some new motivational podcasts).

Now, losing weight, or a certain number on the scale has taken a back seat to other goals and dreams. I can tell without weighing myself if I am making healthy choices or not, and can feel changes in my body without stepping on a scale.

What I haven’t gotten over is looking at old pictures of myself. And now our phones and facebook constantly remind us what we looked at in years past. If I come across an old picture thoughts creep into my head like:

Ew I can’t believe I walked around like that

How did I let myself go so badly

I just look sad and can tell how uncomfortable I was

Why didn’t anyone tell me I looked to fat

It’s the sad uncomfortable truth. I can say that I have gotten into a habit of trying to immediately change my mindset when these negative thoughts come into my head. Having such negative about yourself, even your past self, is completely toxic, so I try to pivot them into thoughts like:

How lucky am I to have people around me that love me no matter what I look like

My body has to be so happy it’s not carrying around dead weight

Think about how much longer and happier life you will live

Look how far I have come

Kado in 2014 vs Kado 6 monthes into 2015 -30 lbs.

Although most of the time I have moved on from anything resembling my past unhealthy lifestyle, I still feel pain when I look at pictures from my heavier days. What really spurred this recently was putting on an old shirt on the Fourth of July. I don’t own many articles of clothing that are older than a year or two. I really purged everything that doesn’t fit. Thank you Plato’s closet.

There was a time when I planned on stashing a few pairs of my old pants at my mom’s house, just in case I gained the weight back. I’m so glad my mom didn’t let me, and reassured me that I would never turn back to that unhealthy of a lifestyle. The pants are really a metaphor for letting go of the past and looking into the future.

So almost everything that didn’t fit I purged, but hey, I had to save my trustee old American flag shirt. I mean it always comes in handy once a year. Well I put it on this year and thought back to an old photo I cringe at. The stringy sides of my shirt are completely pulled tight and I just see all the weight in my face. Now this shirt is actually baggy and I can really see the changes in my waist and face.

I think I look alot healthier and active in my most recent picture. Which makes me realize that in another couple years when I look back at pictures, I will thank myself for making healthier choices, rather than continuing the path that I was on. So like the clothes I purged, I need to purge the negative thoughts, because they don’t fit anymore.

Overall what I have realized about looking at old pictures is that I need to let go of the past and look forward to the progress I will make as an active healthy life eventually pays off.

What are your thoughts on before and after pictures? Let me know in the comments.

Let go of the past and look towards the future,


You CAN really change in 2017

As you may know, I am a big believer in New Year’s resolutions. I’ve had success with them in the past, but I’ve also made many wishful general statements in the past on New Year’s Eve, that I didn’t carry out past the first or second week of the New Year.

This isn’t exactly groundbreaking, but throughout the last few years I have been able to make some positive changes in my life due to learning how to effectively set goals. As an educator, I think that goals are essential in helping students succeed academically. I love thinking about goal setting as deciding what your finish lines are going to be. Although resolutions are never really finished since they are permanent changes, setting milestones and celebrating them will keep you on the race track!

Think about it if there was a starting line in a marathon with no finish line, people will run in all different directions and those who don’t have insane discipline will lose interest after the first ten miles. Envisioning that finish line is fuel to your journey.

New Year’s is a perfect time to make a resolution because it is a memorable day to measure from. If you ask me what I did on December 8th, of last year, I can’t really recall. For this reason January 1st, is a great day to start so you can think back to how your journey began the following New Year’s. Even if your changes don’t begin on New Year’s Day, we can still remember the time when we were preparing to change.

Write down your goal. In February 2015 I was forced to practice writing a SMART goal for an education class. I rolled my eyes while doing it, but this goal is something that I came back to all the time and kept me motivated. I wrote: “In the next year I will lose 30 pounds by adding healthy foods, cutting back sugar and exercising once a day”. Now that’s a specific, measurable, attainable, realistic and time-based goal!

(by the way, Over the course of the year I kicked my SMART goal’s butt! I lost 40 lbs.)

The one thing I can add about weight loss is you won’t be committed until you start to feel better from the healthy changes in your life. Think about it:  even though you are unhappy with the way you look, you will tolerate it. You have done it this long. Once I started to notice changes in my mood and energy from eating healthy and working out, the journey did get easier.

If your goal is really a SMART goal and you know why you want to accomplish it, you can change in 2017!

My planner is littered with weekly, monthly, yearly and long term goals. I love setting these goals because I get to celebrate all of these little finish lines.

It’s not too late to make a resolution now, just think about how you will thank yourself next year. Take some time reflect on what your resolution will be this year, make a plan and envision your finish line.

Happy New Year!

A Journey to Wellness

I’ve sat down several times to write about my wellness journey. I don’t want to bore you with all the details. For me this journey started with a weight loss resolution in January of 2015. This weight loss shifted from vanity to health, when the one I loved the most was diagnosed with Type 1 diabetes, the autoimmune disease type not the lifestyle induced (don’t get it twisted). Mostly I want to give a preview of what I want to share in this corner of mine.


Wellness to me is…

Eating your greens

Taking time for hobbies

Worrying about blood sugar

 type 1 diabetes



Putting work into relationships

Making time for a workout

Going for long, long walks

Weight loss

Goal setting


Cooking new dishes


Having an open mind to try new healthy things


Holistic approaches

Playing with animals



Keeping everyone around me healthy

Seeing new places

Reading new research

Making my Fitbit goal


As you can see my definition of wellness is very broad. This gives a glimpse into my wellness journey so far and I am excited to share what is to come in my wellness journey.


Your health is your wealth,